Yea so it's been months since I've written on this blog but recently I've had so much on my mind that I need to release a few things. While reading Cosmo, I came across an article that asked, "Is Your Life Where You Want It To Be?" Also, last night my sis came over we were talking about getting older and it finally hit me that I'm 23 years old! In 5 months I'll be 24!! And then the big 25!!! Yikes!!! I see most people my age with kids, getting married, some still living at home, others finishing up their bachelors or masters, some not doing anything with their life and others already successful. While yes, I'm independent since I left the "nest" at 21, I still don't have everything I want in life. I'm content but I'm realizing that that's not enough because I want more. Call me selfish or whatever but there is nothing wrong with wanting more. I think moving to Texas and just focusing on myself rather than relationships with others has helped me to get a little stable. Something that I wanted for a long time. I've had to sacrifice friendships but in the end, the people that are meant to stay in your life, will stay in your life. Also, I've come to realize the importance of family. In high school all my focus was on the "love" life, friendships and having fun. It all comes to an end tho. Distance can break or bond together relationships. When I say family, I mean my parents. That annoying couple that only want what's best for me and love me regardless of what I do and put up with my "rebellious" attitude. That couple that I wouldn't trade for the world. Moving out helped me build a relationship with them. If you've known me long enough, you know the strict home I lived in and how I was 21 with an 11 pm curfew and how lying to them was normal. Now I can gladly say that I don't deny anything they ask even tho they get mad at some of the things I do lol. Anyways, I drifted to another conversation (told ya I had a lot in my mind). I'm 23 and I've contemplated on settling on certain things in life but there's a few things that I've lost sight of and I need to get back on track to. Like the main reason why I left the nest was to become independent, have my car, my apt, a good job and still be able to spoil myself. It's all a working process and I've made progress slowly but surely. I didn't want a man helping me and so far I haven't needed one :)
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